Critical System Update!

So, it has been longer then hell since my last post, and boy, things have happened. i went to prom, had an amazing time, went to Houston for ISWEEEP (international energy, engineering, and environment project Olympiad science fair, and received honorable mention + 200$. i returned back, in poor health and well i haven't got much better. i have been on the constant catchup for classes, surprisingly, i only need to work on 2 classes, and that means i just have to turn a few things in. next week i take a few AP tests and 2 weeks after that i graduate? holy stuff! this means i can go make something of myself, or so i hope, well i might post again soon, mainly because i am a man of few words. bye.

spring break hypocrites and lots of science

spring break! WOO! for most people this means parties, drinking, vacations, and no school. well, for myself, none of

these. for the first bit of break, i worked at home, making my parents house look amazing, second bit, same 

thing plus lots of bees, then for my FIRST (for inspiration and recoginition of science and technology) we have a 

robotics team, from an organization that promotes gracious professionalism, constantly blames other team mates 

for their mistakes, and others short commings, as well as being at eachothers throats all the time, almost enought to

punch someone in the face. from the 19th-21st (yes i spent my birthday doing optional school stuff) and then 22nd-24th at 

AzSEF (Arizona science and engeneering fair) then 27th-28th at azjshs (arizona junior science and humanities 

symposium) anyways all in good fun. got to go to sleep so i can spend all day talking to people.

A MESSAGE TO ALL BEES

FUCK YOU!

After being swarmed 3 times today and being stung on the lip, i am making a public statement: "WIth my last breath,  i swear to eliminate every bee ever"

if being sick wasnt enough, getting stung tops it, well,  i hope the rest of spring break isnt that bad.

COMBO BREAKER!

so it has been quite some time, and well... nothing much has changed. I find more and more stress filling my life. i think i am caring too much about everything. maybe i just need to getaway (So come, take me by the hand,Well leave this troubled land,I know we can getaway- earth wind and fire) anyways... My mind has been out of control today. I went to michelle's today. I played SPORE (a video game about species evolution), Baked a cake (yellow with cream cheese frosting), and my favorite- cleaning her kitchen! (for those who dont know, it is the worlds messiest place ever) from now on everytime i go there, i plan on cleaning something new. go me. the picture above is my rushed picture of president carter (request of #167 dad- http://griggits.blogspot.com/) well though i fell accomplished today. i actually posted. hmmm did anyone else notice that it has been getting warmer? well it is good in that my fuel doesnt gel so it dosnt feel like im driving a blender full of ice cubes. anyways, i will have more another night. 

Six Months

So, six months, half a year, and a considerabe ammount of time, it seems that after something makes this point is always lasts a long time or crashes in a giant ball of hate. Eitherway, i do believe that this could be a perment relationship and i believe she feels that same ways, so we see where this goes, asides, We have been through so much already, being stuck in vegas, having conflict with my parents,  Gaining and losing friends, and so much more. Asides all the fun relationship stuff, i feel as if i have been making this an obligation, so to relieve this from my self, I am making this a not obligaion for my self, so i dont have to freek out about posting every night. strange thing is, i keep fining myself going back to Phil Collins songs for no reason, it is more then coincidence, if i start dwelling on a song it comes up, and 70% of the time i am in the car with michelle, so yay? idk, she is always on the brain, and, sighting that, when i dont go to school, wether sick or watnot, i feel kinda guilty and selfish, but eh. OOh! so i got bored and watched frost/nixon again, yet again i still recomend it to anyone, liberal or conservative. Also, i highly suguest buying speakers and putting them behind your headboard and listening to music with the sound behind you. it gives it a bit more of a dimention. anyways, talk to ya latter.

Yet another another sunday

For some reason, i have been thinking about Nixon all day today, so i hope that goes away by tomorrow,  i hope tomorrow is also a good day. night all.

Yet Another non-cliche Holiday

today should have neen a day full of giant teady bears, lots of flowers, and pounds of chocolate, but guess what? 

NOT FOR ME! that is tight, i choose to bypass that and go for the true meaning for the holiday, which reflects being with the one i love the most. Lunch at Joe's Farm Grill, took a long drive, walmart, mall, chat. What a near perfect day!

super short post

Saw Jimmy Carter, spent time with Michelle, had Arabic food, and didn't hang with the boys

Sleep

for some reason,  I find that in the past few weeks, i have been falling asleep as soon as school is over, or sooner as i found out today, maybe i will increase my caffeine intake, that should help. Then again in the end i will probably die from all the new caffeine that is now going to go in to my body, so wish me my best.

Advise & High Crime

It seems that no one takes advise, more over mine. Is it that i can't be taken seriously? Or do people just hate me to a point where i may as well be non-existent. Earlier i told my friend shoplifting is stupid, that no matter what they hear from people, you can get caught, and it will be an expensive fine, yet to my warning, he got caught. My self: being the good friend i am picked his ass up 13 miles away. i just wish someone would take me seriously... Does the Quality of life improve as you age? 

Some one shoot me

So i do believe that i will never get in a car with my mother ever ever again. if you think Hitler was bad, you obviously don't know about my mother, most of my friends with vouch for me in this matter, and well apparently, i don't know how to go to a place she hasn't been to yet i have 20ish times, i don't know what street i am on, i don't know that stores close after 9, and i don't know how to park, use my wipers, turn my lights on, or put a seat belt on.

Another day of force fed lies

Today kinda wasn't great, church, and that was it. TOP POINT OF TODAY: spent 10ish with Michelle. she is my only sanity saver. night all

a day of her

Today was interesting, woke up at mohammed's and didnt remember too much, but neh. 

my boss was hung over so i didnt get to work today, so i substituted work for michelle and spent loads of time with her. anywas, night all

@ work

so i am posting at work, and well i love this job, michelle you almost have a run for 1st place, well, i didnt get fored from harkins, so go me? but anyways im going to a set tonight and btw, if you want to get me 10$ give me your number. i love you all

Sleep, telemarketing, and another Mercedes

today i started my new job, 10$ per lead, and well it works for me, i had the most leads at the office today, so i am superexcited to start my new job. Yesterday i didnt post, i fell asleep at 5 and worke up 12 hours latter, yet somehow i was tired today, go figure. OOH! so i saw a pretty car today! A Red Mercedes SL 280! i dont know what it is about this car but i have always liked them, i think i want one for the garage 1 day, hmmm we will see what happens. anyways, life keeps evolving and so do i, but i hope she will always stay a constant.

Ghosts

"Work all your life, And you end up with nothing, Live in one room... like a bum, Once I flew in a plane, And I fought in a war, We lived in a castle, And slept on the floor, And I don't want to be... All alone anymore" 

I was sitting outside a house in a convertable BMW by myself tonight, and well this was the only song that felt right. looking up at the stars was a amazing moment in time,it was as if I knew that this wouldnt be the last time to losten to this song in a car by myself. I heavaly considered my future and i realized all i needed to have a perfect moment would be to have my sugnificant someone in the seat next to me, and for a second i swore i felt a tear on my cheek, and i hope to what ever higher authority that could appoint so for myslef to expierence another perfect moment like so.

in moments like this, i realized all i want in life is to expierence moments like this, over and over again, i hope i can do everything in my power to create serious moments like this. Michelle: I love you.

A day full of assholes

so i decided to get a new job. I got to try out a new one in telemarketing, i was able to get 3 leads, so that is 30$ in 3 hours so i believe that is doing it for me, speaking of things that do it for me: Michelle. I'm not one for much glorification or put downs on the internet, but i do love her, and i hope i will be able to have a good life with her. 

Momo and life

So Mohammad aka Momo, who had previously moved from here to Maryland, has moved back in an attempt to save his sanity. So i have kind of taken him under a wing of sorts to help him out and get settled. that being said i will probably regret this, knowing of his actions, i will probably regret his friendship but i still enjoy his friendship. Well, the cardinals lost and who cares, so goodnight 

ACDEC & Ability

So this weekend was the decathlon regional competition, and we didn't come in last over all or in relay! YAY!  so maybe i guess i might be cut out for leadership after all. but that doesn't matter to me, all that matters is that someone learned something and someone had their day made. This was our first year to place at state so i guess that is a good thing, but i still wonder what the future has in store for myself in the next few years. College? Marriage? Family? Bald Spot? no one truly knows how we get to the end but what rely maters is who we meat and that we enjoy ourselves while we are on the trip through life. night all.

haiku #1

so yeah i am bored

so i wrote you a haiku

refrigerator

End

Well tomorrow could most likely mark the last time i give my speech, my last interview, my last essay and the last time i truly find myself at home. I feel like these people who i have come to know and love, and i feel like i will keep contact with at least one of them my entire life. Which leaves me to another story: Michelle.  We first me in robotics our freshmen year and we were acquaintances until junior year. then i guess with so much time with each other we started becoming friends, and it has been a roller-coaster since, but in the end, i can see myself ending up have a amazing life with her, and i do love her more then anything, and yeah.    

Aquarium

We are all just fish in a giant aquarium. We chase our reflections and live out a meger Existance. each day brings the same thing, and it doent end till we run out of oxygen or simply put an end to it all and just jump out.

i guess it is just me

So after several attempts of trying to disable my car, i have finally been able to accept its fate of driving it till it stops working, which is kinda cool cuz i learned how to change the breaks and i did 1 side all by myself! yay go me! but neh. )n the flipside of good we have myself getting sick, which sucks, so yeah. apparently there was a robotics insurection (damn i love that word) that had changed the officed layout so im kinda mad but we will see what tomorrow brings me.

baby its cold outside

damn it sure is cold outside, much like life lifeless heart i have. In turn i find everything in our world to be so cold, except those who have gone though horrible things and had to work for themselves. wow this has no point does it.... eh I'm tired so goodnight. wow its only 7:3o... ... ... ... ... ummmmmm how about i tell you about my car? yeah OK. so since bad things happen in threes, the last thing was my tire to blow out. so yet more stuff for me to cry about. byes for nao

$cientology

As par Sunday being the day of my captivity, I have been planning on staring a whole set of posting on Mormonism/Scientology and its many faults, so lets start with Scientology today, I'm feeling chatty anyways.

The Church of Scientology is a vicious and dangerous cult that masquerades as a religion. Its purpose is to make money. It practices a variety of mind-control techniques on people lured into its midst to gain control over their money and their lives. Its aim is to take from them every penny that they have and can ever borrow and to also enslave them to further its wicked ends. It was started in the 1950s by a science fiction writer named L. Ron Hubbard in fulfilment to his declared aim to start a religion to make money. It is an offshoot to a method of psychotherapy he concocted from various sources which he named "Dianetics". Dianetics is a form of regression therapy. It was then further expanded to appear more like a religion in order to enjoy tax benefits. He called it "Scientology". Scientology is a confused concoction of crackpot, dangerously applied psychotherapy, oversimplified, idiotic and inapplicable rules and ideas and science-fiction drivel that is presented to its members (at the "advanced" levels) as profound spiritual truth.

The results of applying their crackpot psychotherapy (called "auditing") is to weaken the mind. The mind goes from a rational state to an irrational one as the delusional contents of the subconscious mind are brought to the surface and are assumed to be valid. It also makes a person more susceptible to suggestion since it submerges the critical thinking faculties of the mind into a partial subconscious state. It results in a permanent light hypnotic trance and so from thenceforth that person can be more easily controlled. The person will, to a much greater extent, believe and do whatever they are told. And of course this is used to the full in persuading them to hand over further money and dedicating themselves further to the cult.

The results of applying their oversimplified and inapplicable rules in life is to lose the ability to think rationally and logically. A person loses the ability to think for themselves and so they lose the ability to challenge incorrect ideas. This makes them easier to control. It also isolates and alienates the person from society so that they withdraw from normal society and into their "Scientology" society. This further increases their susceptibility to the influence of their group. They end up being afraid of society, believing all society to be controlled by a group of drug companies, psychiatrists and financiers all of whom report to more remote masters. In other words they are in a state of mass paranoia. They therefore avoid reading newspapers and the like since they fear it will disturb their safe Scientology world. It is a downward spiral into madness.

The science fiction content of Scientology is revealed to them after they have reached the state they call "Clear", meaning freed from the aberrations of the mind. However, perhaps "brainwashed" would be a more applicable word to describe the mental state of someone who has survived the near entire delusional contents of their subconscious mind brought to the surface and presented to them as "truth". On the "advanced" levels (called OT levels) above the state of "Clear" they encounter the story of Xenu.

Once upon a time (75 million years ago to be more precise) there was an alien galactic ruler named Xenu. Xenu was in charge of all the planets in this part of the galaxy including our own planet Earth, except in those days it was called Teegeeack. Now Xenu had a problem. All of the 76 planets he controlled were overpopulated. Each planet had on average 178 billion people. He wanted to get rid of all the overpopulation so he had a plan.

Xenu took over complete control with the help of renegades to defeat the good people and the Loyal Officers. Then with the help of psychiatrists he called in billions of people for income tax inspections where they were instead given injections of alcohol and glycol mixed to paralyse them. Then they were put into space planes that looked exactly like DC8s (except they had rocket motors instead of propellers).

These DC8 space planes then flew to planet Earth where the paralysed people were stacked around the bases of volcanoes in their hundreds of billions. When they had finished stacking them around then H-bombs were lowered into the volcanoes. Xenu then detonated all the H-bombs at the same time and everyone was killed.

The story doesn't end there though. Since everyone has a soul (called a "thetan" in this story) then you have to trick souls into not coming back again. So while the hundreds of billions of souls were being blown around by the nuclear winds he had special electronic traps that caught all the souls in electronic beams (the electronic beams were sticky like fly-paper).

After he had captured all these souls he had them packed into boxes and taken to a few huge cinemas. There all the souls had to spend days watching special 3D motion pictures that told them what life should be like and many confusing things. In this film they were shown false pictures and told they were God, The Devil and Christ. In the story this process is called "implanting".

When the films ended and the souls left the cinema these souls started to stick together because since they had all seen the same film they thought they were the same people. They clustered in groups of a few thousand. Now because there were only a few living bodies left they stayed as clusters and inhabited these bodies.

As for Xenu, the Loyal Officers finally overthrew him and they locked him away in a mountain on one of the planets. He is kept in by a force-field powered by an eternal battery and Xenu is still alive today.

That is the end of the story. And so today everyone is full of these clusters of souls called "body thetans". And if we are to be a free soul then we have to remove all these "body thetans" and pay lots of money to do so. And the only reason people believe in God and Christ was because it was in the film their body thetans saw 75 million years ago.

I would like to dedicate my post to all of the internet especially everyone at"" "Operation Clambake" because i didn't want to type some of that out.  But otherwise, I would like to end in a quote: 

"Writing for a penny a word is ridiculous. If a man really wants to make a million dollars, the best way would be to start his own religion" 

-written by a 1940's pulp writer

-L. Ron Hubbard 

It is all my fault

So last night i was so stuffed with delicious curry lamb that i fell asleep immediately, so i apologise for that. this one is going to be short in hopes of a super long post on Religion tomorrow.

Facial Hair and A Angry Whopper

So today was another day in the life of me. I Played badminton for almost 2 hours, and got 100% on a math test, other then that nothing too memorable, spent a little bit more time with michelle today, and i WENT TO ROBOTICS!!! for the first time this week... so yeah. (NOTE-nothing is delicious at burgerking, angry whopper= not memorable)

My complaint of the day is girls complain about hair too much, wether it is top of head hair being perfect or body hair, they complain too much. well, dont complain about any hair ever again! you dont have to shave a beard that gets scruffy 7 hours latter. So srsly it sicks. short post tonight. peace. 

Deep Sea Water & Racism

Today was a day full of beverages, it started off with the usual unavoidable shower water, the the unavoidable Listerine, followed by a cappuccino and a cherry coke. on my way to school i drank a Calpico. Missing Zero hour, i finish my drink and go to pe where i start on my 2 liters of Deep Sea Water (water pumped from the bottom of a sea/bay then is filtered/cleaned/unsalted hen trucked to where ever it is bottled in japan. otherwise,  it was delicious and i still haven't finished it),  i then had a maciado then a Italian soda followed by more Deep Sea Water then eventually a much bigger cappuccino and a cherry coke, and to end my day a regular cup of fridge watter, with the normal 5 regular size ice cubes. So ends my beverage tale.

SO for an English project i chose the Tale of The Summoner who in essence bashes religion and its corruption (i was hooked after the first sentence). Anyways, My project group includes Myself, Taylor Lunsford, and Azia Gibbs (All 3 of us noted for being the biggest procrastinators and lazy asses around) so we committed to making the best project ever. in the end we did most of the power point with only 1 slide to finish and 1 movie to make(i will post it when finished), but overall productive, in the end though, we all hated our own races an wished to be an others to some point, at least that is the vibe i got, and lesson of today: The white need to get it right. it sucks being white. cant jump, cant dance, cant rap, but i sure can fix computers! anyways, just lots of Innocent fun today. till morrow when i shalst log the goings on a teenager doth behold. (sorry I'm a idiot)

Euphoric

When i get home after a long day of school and stress relieving activities i feel euphoric, as i am now. today had been an interesting day full of fun and learning, and tomorrow holds only more fun and learning. today i judged 5th grade science fair projects, and to say the most only 1 person though of a creative project. all the others involved common information or melting different liquids, and well, it gets boring after the nth board, asides the fact that I'm a complete asshole and i couldn't care for the least for children i feel i have been growing on Michelle's brother Andre, 8, i seem to have some kind of connection and i hope this will help me to be a better parent so my children would not have to live my life, and i guess that that fact alone makes me a better parent. As you guys may not be familiar with my genetics, i have a recessive black gene that hasn't expressed itself to anyone yet. and 6ish? generations latter i hope it could be me with this genetic expression so i could have a black baby. i secretly have always wanted 1, but no child i could have would disappoint me. what i hope for at minimum is 2 kids, one of each so they could balance out each other. Well i hope i don't bore you. Peace. -JW 

Asians

today was a special day, sunday i receved a fed ex kid for 10 days, and wow, he is quiet. iI decided to change him, show him the american way, give hime a view of what i have come to know as america, so where do i take him? LEE LEE supermarket, an asian store, a prime example of how america is a giant clutter of different clutures and how nothing is truly "American". asides from that, i got to spend some time with michelle, so i guess my day was pretty good, and i have nothing to complain about... BTW I CAN OPEN MY TRUNK AGAIN!

It had to happen eventually

so today i expierenced my first car accident. if you dont know allready, i drive a 1982 mercedes 300D and each week for the past 2 weeks something has happend to it. 2 weeks ago saturday, some one tried to break in and shatered the pins in my driverside lock. today, sunday, i backed up and hit a F350 superduty dulie, and well... it shattered my breaklight and bent my trunk so it cant open, what happend to the truck? not evern a srcatch! did i mention all this happens in the mormon chirch parking lot? this is what i get for being a good little mormon boy... curse you god

To give me more to my daily routine

I have decided to make blogging part of my daily life, so here we go. The song you might be listening to is "Twilight Time" by the platters,

I discovered it a few days ago and i haven't been able to get it out of my head since. Speaking of music, I have also been listening to alot

of Akon lately, strange, but acceptable. Today, I was driving and i had to stop at a stoplight at Cooper and Ocotillo, where a very

enthusiastic and kind man had a chat with me (all possible because of all my windows being down), we talked about the

cardinals and how there "GO!" ings (frankly I was surprised I could hear him over the sound of my Mercedes Diesel), in a kind of way,

this little conversation kind of made my day, I glad there is someone else out there that is open enough to have a kind

conversation about whatever and know that you will probably never see this person again. I keep coming up with new idea on what to

blog on and you can look forward to my posts on Scientology, Mormonism, The internet, and My Life Story. Anyways, that should

entertain you for tonight, goodbye no one

its a start

Well i guess i have to start somewhere, and this would be it. My name is James JacksonWalton West, my middle name is conjoined with my mother's maiden name due to the glorious state of California. for future reference i tend to spend 3-5 hours lurking the internet (yeah that's right i don't capitalize internet, it is a general place not a specific one) at night, so if something doesn't make sense, you do not necessarily need to inform me of how much of an idiot i am or how many grammatical errors i may have. I WILL RESPOND TO ALL TAKE DOWN NOTICES. Anyways, goodnight none of you